This morning, I received an email in my facebook in-box wishing me a Happy Thanksgiving. This sweet soul also mentioned that she's sure my mom and dad are with me on this day. I can't tell you how much that meant to me. This is my first holiday season without them both and I have been struggling with some very raw emotions lately. I've been keeping busy with work to try to deflect some of the feelings and sadness.
No hopping in the car with a casserole in tow and heading to their house full of turkey dinner smells and windows all vapored up due to the hot oven and flurry of activity. None of Mom's homemade noodles or oyster dressing. No watching my Dad pick the turkey bones dry. No napping with him on the couch with full bellies. No debating with Mom about how much leftovers we'll take home.
But, I continue to remind myself, especially after the sweet and gentle reminder from a friend, that they are with me today. And every day for that matter.
We visited the nursing home today where my Mom spent the last several months of her life. I have a connection to that place that is undeniable, not just because she passed there but also because of the kind and gentle people who became an extended family to us during our journey. We took a gift to my mom's old roommate, a special and unique person who brought us laughter and joy in trying times. When she muttered, well actually yelled the words "I miss you Polly", my heart melted.
Despite going through this Thanksgiving without my mom and dad, I am still thankful for so many things in my life, too numerous to mention. Mostly though, I'm thankful that I had many wonderful Thanksgiving memories with my parents to think of today. I know they're together now. I know they're not suffering with illness. And I know they're thankful for many things too.
And my windows are vapored up here at home. I'm trying to replicate mom's noodles. The house will soon be a flurry of activity when our guests arrive. And I'm sure we'll debate over how much leftovers they will take home with them.
The traditions, the rituals, they continue. They live on in us.
Wishing you all a Happy Thanksgiving! Make memories. Relive your family's traditions. And most of all, be thankful.
~ vintage love ~